[ his eyes bug out of his head a little—he TOLD MAKOTO???? great, now they both know... the teasing will never cease, will it. he briefly considers mentioning that he told Rin, in turn, but it'll certainly make him seem cool, like he is so much more with it than he is if he just passes it off as already totally knowing what he's doing, right?? not that... he'd lie if it came up. it's just. not going to come up. that's all.
he sways himself back and forth on the swing, feet planted firmly on the ground, staring off into the park where he's already had so many good times. it's complicated, that feeling of automatically assuming that Rei would turn him down. he hasn't ever really been turned down by anybody for anything in particular, but he also has it on good authority that he's never been anyone's first choice for anything in particular, either. he thinks so much more highly of Rei than he does of himself, it would only make sense that he could do so much better and find somebody better suited to him. somebody who likes math, who doesn't skip school and actually cares about their future, someone with ambition and a plan—he's got none of those things. he's also not so foolish as to underestimate how deeply they care about each other as friends; he knows perfectly well that he's irreplaceable and cared for, but isn't this... going beyond all that, a little bit?
maybe, maybe not. it must not be, if Rei is here now, saying these things, he reasons with himself. after all, to him, nothing between Rin and Makoto has changed. it was only added onto—nothing got taken away. so he and Rei could have something like that, too. maybe. ]
It is perfectly normal. Nothing is really changing, you know? Especially since it's like you said... you always felt that way. I did, too. [ oh boy. here we go. ] I wasn't planning to tell you either, but I'm glad I did. I was too scared before, but I'm not anymore. You always give me that kind of courage, to not run away from what's on the inside. We could've gone on forever not knowing how we felt about each other, and that's really sad, so... it makes me really happy to know how you feel!
Re: gay baby swings together
he sways himself back and forth on the swing, feet planted firmly on the ground, staring off into the park where he's already had so many good times. it's complicated, that feeling of automatically assuming that Rei would turn him down. he hasn't ever really been turned down by anybody for anything in particular, but he also has it on good authority that he's never been anyone's first choice for anything in particular, either. he thinks so much more highly of Rei than he does of himself, it would only make sense that he could do so much better and find somebody better suited to him. somebody who likes math, who doesn't skip school and actually cares about their future, someone with ambition and a plan—he's got none of those things. he's also not so foolish as to underestimate how deeply they care about each other as friends; he knows perfectly well that he's irreplaceable and cared for, but isn't this... going beyond all that, a little bit?
maybe, maybe not. it must not be, if Rei is here now, saying these things, he reasons with himself. after all, to him, nothing between Rin and Makoto has changed. it was only added onto—nothing got taken away. so he and Rei could have something like that, too. maybe. ]
It is perfectly normal. Nothing is really changing, you know? Especially since it's like you said... you always felt that way. I did, too. [ oh boy. here we go. ] I wasn't planning to tell you either, but I'm glad I did. I was too scared before, but I'm not anymore. You always give me that kind of courage, to not run away from what's on the inside. We could've gone on forever not knowing how we felt about each other, and that's really sad, so... it makes me really happy to know how you feel!
[ glanc...ing... over ]
You feel happy too, right?